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Trying to warm myself up with some vanilla flavoured cappuccino. Actually seems to help a bit. As I sip the warm liquid, it slowly starts to tingle it’s way through my body and I finally begin to feel more thawed. How weird that might sound. 

You see, my living room is freakishly cold each winter, and even if I crank up the radiator, it takes quite some time for it to be warm enough for me not to freeze. Even with a blanket. Last year I took some advice to keep my radiator on, so it wouldn’t have to use energy to reheat the room. However, for the first time ever I received an extra heating bill, which was not really the plan. So this year I’ve decided to put off turning it on, since I don’t feel like getting another bill next year. And that’s why I’m persistent in cuddling with my blanket and candles from time to time. It’s not just because of the cozy ambiance. It’s also about saving money. And let’s face it, one day I’ll stop being single. So I need to remember this feeling of freezing alone. Because when that day comes, I’m going to sit on the couch having to warm myself, cuz my boyfriend will think I’m crazy for freezing and doesn’t want to cuddle up with me. Cuz if we did cuddle, he thinks he’s going to get too warm, and be all warm and sweaty, and just plain uncomfortable. Or was that just how it was between me and my ex…?

Trying to warm myself up with some vanilla flavoured cappuccino. Actually seems to help a bit. As I sip the warm liquid, it slowly starts to tingle it’s way through my body and I finally begin to feel more thawed. How weird that might sound.

You see, my living room is freakishly cold each winter, and even if I crank up the radiator, it takes quite some time for it to be warm enough for me not to freeze. Even with a blanket. Last year I took some advice to keep my radiator on, so it wouldn’t have to use energy to reheat the room. However, for the first time ever I received an extra heating bill, which was not really the plan. So this year I’ve decided to put off turning it on, since I don’t feel like getting another bill next year. And that’s why I’m persistent in cuddling with my blanket and candles from time to time. It’s not just because of the cozy ambiance. It’s also about saving money. And let’s face it, one day I’ll stop being single. So I need to remember this feeling of freezing alone. Because when that day comes, I’m going to sit on the couch having to warm myself, cuz my boyfriend will think I’m crazy for freezing and doesn’t want to cuddle up with me. Cuz if we did cuddle, he thinks he’s going to get too warm, and be all warm and sweaty, and just plain uncomfortable. Or was that just how it was between me and my ex…?

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My mother told me today that she and my 4-year-old nephew had played with Lego earlier. And when she got really irritated with the blocks falling apart, and was showing aggravation, my nephew said quietly “Easy now grandma. You can just put the blocks back together, if they fall apart.” And then she looked at me, smiled and continued “And whose voice did I hear through him? Auntie!” It hit me. That was so true. I did tell him just that about a month ago, when he almost cried in his room, cause his creations kept falling apart. I had looked at him and calmly explained to him that the great thing about Lego was, that if they fell apart, you could just put them back together again. So he shouldn’t be sad, even though I understood he might be frustrated. Which of course also was okay to get. 
I got kind’a proud that he actually had listened to me, and remembered my words. (His concentration span is not that big, when you try to explain something to him). And further more, I felt great that my mother knew that was something I would say. Guess I’m much more zen than my big sister is ;) 

May be a good thing that I almost only “lose it” when I’m by myself or I get to the last straw… People mostly think of me as a really calm and put together kind of person. Nice to now. :) Hope they won’t get frustrated if they some day should experience me stressed out. I then talk even faster than I already do, my heart beats fast, I get really restless and can’t sit still. And if it’s really bad, I might cry out of mere frustration. Especially if I feel helpless. But I seldom raise my voice. I can’t see why that would help. Sure I feel like using a punching bag sometimes, but mostly if I’m stressed out, frustrated or anxious I take a long walk. That helps me even more. Luckily I’m pretty happy right now. Especially after having a couple of really great weeks, where last night was pretty awesome. And I really hope this continues since, well, I love being happy… And I can soon enough forget this feeling, if I get frustrated which is sad, but true. Guess a lot of people have it like that. Nothing strange in feeling that way. So even though I might be a pretty eccentric person, I’m still a regular humanbeing deep down… ;)

My mother told me today that she and my 4-year-old nephew had played with Lego earlier. And when she got really irritated with the blocks falling apart, and was showing aggravation, my nephew said quietly “Easy now grandma. You can just put the blocks back together, if they fall apart.” And then she looked at me, smiled and continued “And whose voice did I hear through him? Auntie!” It hit me. That was so true. I did tell him just that about a month ago, when he almost cried in his room, cause his creations kept falling apart. I had looked at him and calmly explained to him that the great thing about Lego was, that if they fell apart, you could just put them back together again. So he shouldn’t be sad, even though I understood he might be frustrated. Which of course also was okay to get.
I got kind’a proud that he actually had listened to me, and remembered my words. (His concentration span is not that big, when you try to explain something to him). And further more, I felt great that my mother knew that was something I would say. Guess I’m much more zen than my big sister is ;)

May be a good thing that I almost only “lose it” when I’m by myself or I get to the last straw… People mostly think of me as a really calm and put together kind of person. Nice to now. :) Hope they won’t get frustrated if they some day should experience me stressed out. I then talk even faster than I already do, my heart beats fast, I get really restless and can’t sit still. And if it’s really bad, I might cry out of mere frustration. Especially if I feel helpless. But I seldom raise my voice. I can’t see why that would help. Sure I feel like using a punching bag sometimes, but mostly if I’m stressed out, frustrated or anxious I take a long walk. That helps me even more. Luckily I’m pretty happy right now. Especially after having a couple of really great weeks, where last night was pretty awesome. And I really hope this continues since, well, I love being happy… And I can soon enough forget this feeling, if I get frustrated which is sad, but true. Guess a lot of people have it like that. Nothing strange in feeling that way. So even though I might be a pretty eccentric person, I’m still a regular humanbeing deep down… ;)

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Just finished watching “A million ways to die in the west”, and I loved it. Corky, hilarious and full of cameos and typical eccentric Seth Macfarlane inputs. It’s so full of these tiny bits the whole way though that just made me crack up and shake my head. It was awesome. (And he, of course, was so cute…) :) And I bet some of the lines where Charlize laughed at his jokes, were some he either made up right there and then, or tailored while shooting. Her laugh was so honest and true, and it’s easy to see that they are great friends IRL. 

So happy I decided to watch it this evening, since it was a pretty perfect ending to a pretty good day. Just wished I’d watched it with someone else. I’m one of those douches who can’t keep her mouth shot during a movie, when I find something noteworthy. Or if I’m sure of what’s gonna happen next. And I needed to say all these neat things several times during the movie, but it all got waisted because it was just me watching. Oh how horrible! There were no one to hear all my great comments. So sad… Well… You know the thing that happened after the other thing that happened, somewhere in the movie? I TOTALLY KNEW THAT WAS GONNA HAPPEN. I REALLY DID! And there were no people to hear it. Argh. It’s like the proverbial tree in the forest: If I say something tremendously funny - AND clever - but there’s no one there to hear it. Millions of people will never know… Or am I remembering the tree thing wrong…? Any who… The point is, I’m a hoot to watch movies with, such a shame I’m the only one who gets to experience it each and every time… 

Oh yeah to sum up my movie review: The bird might have been the word, but now it’s definitely Seth Macfarlane who’s the word. At least IMO. And remember: people die at the fair… Thank you everybody and goodnight! (I might have watched quite a bit of Macfarlane stuff this past month… Does it show…?)

Just finished watching “A million ways to die in the west”, and I loved it. Corky, hilarious and full of cameos and typical eccentric Seth Macfarlane inputs. It’s so full of these tiny bits the whole way though that just made me crack up and shake my head. It was awesome. (And he, of course, was so cute…) :) And I bet some of the lines where Charlize laughed at his jokes, were some he either made up right there and then, or tailored while shooting. Her laugh was so honest and true, and it’s easy to see that they are great friends IRL.

So happy I decided to watch it this evening, since it was a pretty perfect ending to a pretty good day. Just wished I’d watched it with someone else. I’m one of those douches who can’t keep her mouth shot during a movie, when I find something noteworthy. Or if I’m sure of what’s gonna happen next. And I needed to say all these neat things several times during the movie, but it all got waisted because it was just me watching. Oh how horrible! There were no one to hear all my great comments. So sad… Well… You know the thing that happened after the other thing that happened, somewhere in the movie? I TOTALLY KNEW THAT WAS GONNA HAPPEN. I REALLY DID! And there were no people to hear it. Argh. It’s like the proverbial tree in the forest: If I say something tremendously funny - AND clever - but there’s no one there to hear it. Millions of people will never know… Or am I remembering the tree thing wrong…? Any who… The point is, I’m a hoot to watch movies with, such a shame I’m the only one who gets to experience it each and every time…

Oh yeah to sum up my movie review: The bird might have been the word, but now it’s definitely Seth Macfarlane who’s the word. At least IMO. And remember: people die at the fair… Thank you everybody and goodnight! (I might have watched quite a bit of Macfarlane stuff this past month… Does it show…?)

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You know you’ve had a couple of busy workout days, when you halfway through your Zumba class realize that it’s been about 20 hours since you’ve had something to eat. And that’s mainly because you don’t like to workout an hour before you’re getting it on. (And slept for 7.5 hours) Or is that just me? Cause when my workouts lie closely and early, or late, I don’t really get around to eat. I know I should, but I feel terrible (and sometimes nauseated) with a full stomach as I work out. So I often just don’t. Guess we all have habits that are both good or bad. I’ve tried to eat before a class a couple of times, and It doesn’t work for me.
Sure, sometimes depending on the intensity I can consume a small amount of something. But mostly, I prefer not. And I don’t see me changing that habit anytime soon. Or maybe I just need a few tricks to help me feel comfortable in eating a bit before hand. However, I haven’t really found anything yet… 

 So for now, guess I’ll stick to my habit. I might feel a bit low on energy with high cardio classes sometimes, but most of the time I feel perfectly fine. So I’d rather feel a bit tired a small percentage of the time, than have a pain in my side and feel nauseated cause I ate too close to my workout. And after all, it’s not like I don’t eat anything. Sometimes there’s just a few more hours between meals than other times. I was actually surprised that there had gone so many hours since my last meal today. (Had 2 late workout classes yesterday, so didn’t eat afterwards, since I was home pretty late in the evening, and almost went straight to bed) So don’t worry peeps, I get my calories, my weight and health is prove enough (just ask my doctor) ;)

Yeah… The photo of me had nothing to do with my workout eating theme - was from showing my sis that the new iOS had a timer for taking photos… I just had to put something up and it IS T.G.I.F… Wish you all a great weekend. And yes, I too will be doing stuff… ;)

You know you’ve had a couple of busy workout days, when you halfway through your Zumba class realize that it’s been about 20 hours since you’ve had something to eat. And that’s mainly because you don’t like to workout an hour before you’re getting it on. (And slept for 7.5 hours) Or is that just me? Cause when my workouts lie closely and early, or late, I don’t really get around to eat. I know I should, but I feel terrible (and sometimes nauseated) with a full stomach as I work out. So I often just don’t. Guess we all have habits that are both good or bad. I’ve tried to eat before a class a couple of times, and It doesn’t work for me. Sure, sometimes depending on the intensity I can consume a small amount of something. But mostly, I prefer not. And I don’t see me changing that habit anytime soon. Or maybe I just need a few tricks to help me feel comfortable in eating a bit before hand. However, I haven’t really found anything yet…

So for now, guess I’ll stick to my habit. I might feel a bit low on energy with high cardio classes sometimes, but most of the time I feel perfectly fine. So I’d rather feel a bit tired a small percentage of the time, than have a pain in my side and feel nauseated cause I ate too close to my workout. And after all, it’s not like I don’t eat anything. Sometimes there’s just a few more hours between meals than other times. I was actually surprised that there had gone so many hours since my last meal today. (Had 2 late workout classes yesterday, so didn’t eat afterwards, since I was home pretty late in the evening, and almost went straight to bed) So don’t worry peeps, I get my calories, my weight and health is prove enough (just ask my doctor) ;)

Yeah… The photo of me had nothing to do with my workout eating theme - was from showing my sis that the new iOS had a timer for taking photos… I just had to put something up and it IS T.G.I.F… Wish you all a great weekend. And yes, I too will be doing stuff… ;)

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